this thought came to mind as i began to cruise through the woods in a year old pair of trainers that were not “made” for the trails
their tread is wearing and this particular shoe is better suited for other surfaces
but i deviated off the greenway to play in the woods along my favorite trails
creating a moment in the middle of my own chaos to do some thing i love rather than telling myself it’s not ok to find joy in the midst of my own madness
but this thought about trusting our feet lead to a stream of consciousness that served as a remember that regardless of the blinders we try to put on our life — or in this situation my feet — it’s ok to move through situations with the possibility that we could fall as we test out our new awareness and even let go of what we expect will happen to experience our potential
examining my beliefs and tracing their origin is not the lightest of work and i lately have found myself diverting over integrating and creating
my awareness does not always match my actions
so as i turned to an old habit with new awareness floating through the woods i recognized where old beliefs are clashing with new awareness
i need to take time to truly sit with what is coming up
integrating lessons and healing wounds and letting go of old beliefs and reprogramming is hard and i’m not alone in doing this
we’re all creating in this life based on our own experiences and many of us are doing a lot of inside work to heal and expand
some feel more challenged while others feel like they’re thriving
it happens
that’s a cool part of this experience
we’re all growing through levels of our own and expanding as we do it
finding compassion and grace for ourselves and those around us is important
this holiday season already looks and feels a lot different from previous years but maybe it’s an opportunity let go of old beliefs that no longer serve us and create traditions of our own while still celebrating things and people we love
and maybe
just maybe
finding joy in the journey
not just the outcomes
