April Showers bring May Flowers?
I’ve had my share of daily ones this month.
The universe screamed PLOT TWIST at the end of March.
I found out a family member has a brain tumor while also working through my own demons and trying to prepare to tell my “Why I Run” story.
Life hit hard this April.
Literally, the day that my Eastbay package arrived, was the day I found out.
I thought it was an April fools joke.
It’s the second time in my life this person has almost died.
We’ve since found out the initial diagnosis was too severe and the 2-3 months he had to live was wrong.
The tumor is not as life threatening, but it’s still malignant and inoperable.
But he’s getting treatment.
And through all this, I had to take care of me.
But now my eyes are slowly drying.
I’m slowly coming out of hiding.
My anxiety is not so bad and I’m back to working on and brainstorming big projects.
Normally you guys would have seen me celebrating my birthday all month, but I’m working on celebrating all week.
I really don’t know what I want to do.
I just want to do.
And I’m ready to be around people again.
It’s been hard to be around people.
But it’s time.
I can’t shut the world out forever. And I really don’t want to be a hypocrite.
April is my birthday month but I may celebrate into May.
I have been training.
I have been working through a crazy stomach issue.
I have been trying.
Now to try harder.
Love you all who have been here supporting.
Sorry for keeping this from everyone, but I’m still here.
I just needed a little time for me.
I can’t wait to get back to all of you.